Tuesday, May 20, 2008 @9:14 PM
BE WARNED!this is gonna be a ranting post.
i simply have too much in my head right now,
that i feel if i dont say out.
im gonna explode.
and though i have so much work on my hands,
biochem tut, pract manuals to go thru, fpath and aimm lect quizzes to mug for,
i cant concentrate fully
with my head filling with all of this irrelevant thoughts.
okay maybe not irrelevant,
but SERIOUSLY distracting!
argh!!!!!
why does everything ALWAYS happen all at ONE GO?!
i have so many things to throw out i have ABSOLUTELY no idea where to begin.
life is irritating,
we push on for what?
do we get something guranteed?
is there always sunshine after the rain?
rubbish.
all rubbish.
and the best part, i dont even know why i find myself believing the crap i say sometimes.
yeah sure its hell better to just buy the whole story,
even if somewhere inside of you,
something is screaming that its all a bunch of bullshit.
but still we buy it.
the whole darn thing.
and for what?
momentary peace.
then what next?
push on.
what the hell do we push on for, just so that we can evade the problem?
the whole darn situation?
running away,
its the best thing to do.
no one ever said it would solve anything,
but no one else had any better suggestion to offer either?!
so what the hell.
pause for a moment and take a breather.
paranoid, fake, lies.
things we resort to, to move on.
to make ourselves better if you must.
there's always a reason behind everyone's story.
but do we stop to care and to listen?
and even if we do,
are we willing to share?
what a mockery.
how many times do we go through this before we learn our lessons?
betrayl, no matter how small.
they hurt, really deep.
and sometimes even if you think its over, done.
it still comes back to haunt.
it always does.
perfection.
ive never craved you more then i do now.
someone so perfect, that you are non existant.
(babe, right now i really understand what you meant when you told me this was how you felt)
ranting session,
over.