Friday, June 27, 2008 @11:37 PM
larchrymal was activated in school today.so didnt wanna have to see this day, but it happened.you know i just dont know why,its not just the disappointment of failing genetics,other then the fact i poured my heart and soul into trying to get it.its more of the reality that set in,when i looked at the reflection of the mirror.who am i kidding?im not cut out for this, maybe i never was?just wish if that was it, why didnt i see this earlier?why didn't i get out when i still could?its too late now.i know it is.everythings falling apart.i just cant lie no more.its hard to walk around, looking at seas of people,but yet the comfort i so long for, is one i cant seem to find.i miss everything i used to have,so much at this point,i think id give anything to have just one more day of the past.it all seems so very far away now.out of sight and out of reach.22/09/2011you are further away then i ever imagined.i know i said i'd try.i'd forget.i'd let go.but forgive me.i can't.and believe me, when i say ive tried.im tired. i am.and my vision is bluring up again.great.larchrymal.my heart dont feel no more.flatline.