Saturday, June 21, 2008 @2:57 PM
you.i never thought i'd come to this conclusion.its not what the others are capable of saying or manupilating.its you.you.because of you.im here wondering, more and more with each time this happens,is my life that ive know for so many years gonna change forever.i tell myself and others.its okay. i dont care.but now it feels like as if ive been here,in this state of denial for too darn long.that ive forgetten what true feelings are.how truly happy is supposed to feel.all im left with is hopelessness, sadness.and then i just wanna be engulfed into a huge hole in the earth.why is it that this never ends?why cant they all just die away.is it because there is no place for them anywhere else other then earth?then it hits me.its not them.its you.and suddenly im sure,even if they all died tomorrow, you will still be you.and its always still gonna be our fault.never yours and never theirs.its just us.i wish i could say this doesnt hurt one bit,but the real truth is.it eats away at me.it makes me cry.i just wanna run away.because i dont know what else to do.i dont know what else i can do.and because no one ever had a better solution to offer.so i run.