Friday, July 31, 2009 @11:37 PM
sometimes i really contradict myself with my thoughts,the future is really bleak right now,perhaps you might say its bleak because i cannot see the light at the end of this long winding tunnel,the truth is, im at a huge crossroad,one that i do not have confidence that i can walk through.what happens when you no longer have confidence in yourself,im talking about the choices you make each day,both the big and the smallno matter how many times i tell myself,its alright, there's a reason behind everything.but deep down i know how much i wanted to go,to get that place; with every ounce of hope left inside me,i desperately seeked an opportunity to regain my confidence in the decision i made 3 years ago.because the truth is; i know that im worried and afraid,more so because no one seems to really understand.this immense pressure is taking its toil,i do my best to mask it, but its these days that i cant hold it in no more.you know whats the worst thing amongst all this,im running out of time, time that i can always use as an excuse to delay the point where i have to decide again,time to open a new chapter in life, time to move on and grow up;and i know time is almost up.disappointment, would mostly come from myself,for letting too many opportunities pass me by,for just being naive. but i know all too well, time waits for no one,neither does it turn back,its the one thing people cannot buy and i know thats what makes it precious.oh what a fool i am.