Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @10:12 PM
its just one of those days that everything you've been trying to suppress and hide away;to live in denial because its the only thing that keeps you sane;where every breath you take just makes your heart ache like never before.Lord, i know you have plans for me,but sometimes its just so hard to carry on without knowing where im going,and lately i just feel like i'm moving one step forwardbut at the same time ten steps back.i know that no one ever said any of this was gonna be easy,call me naive when i thought what i thought at the point i decided to take this road.somehow today, it just feels like im all alone in this,even though i know im not,dear lord, i need to feel your presence.i dont feel ready for this, any of this. i wanna be five again;where my world was perfect with the sight of rainbows and helium balloons and kites.