Thursday, December 17, 2009 @9:18 PM
things are getting tough,but we all try our best and pull through with the Lord's help.work load is piling up, data and statistics that i'm super horrible at, gosh numbers and me just don't go together.i'm trying really hard, i know its kinda too little too late,but i'm not ready to give up on the dream.a career that i wanted since i was a kid;with so many obstacles in the way - somehow i just cant find it in me to let it go. i need strength and faith and to never lose hope because you always have a plan for us.TP is just round the corner,with me going to HKG for the few days before, im just worried.what if the weather sucks and pours that morning,what if i get a crappy tester,what if i get horrible morning traffic (which im so sure i will),what if i panic and just forget everything?RARRRHHHHH, push it away, push it away, push all these negative thoughts away. i wonder what it takes before your brain goes into overdrive and decides it needs to shut down.denial denialescapade escapademy only sweet serenade,2009 is coming to an end - its scary how just this time last year i was in NYC. having the time of my life, and now i've got to face early mid-life crisis.doesnt help to know that almost everyone else i know is facing this too, but its just a phase in life. okay now that i've ranted all that out, my brain has a lil more space to breathe now.this weekend is jammed packed w stuff.tmr, company bbq ((: nicole is driving, so sweet! sat, dental in the morning, driving in the afternoon, dinner at marina in the eveningsun, church, driving (circuit), do work.and next week thurs, imma fly fly fly away to shopping paradise and buy myself a truckload of things to brainwash all my troubles away! thank goodness for happy upbeat songs like Down by Jay Sean feat Lil Wayne,that song has kept me awake on the way to work and alive as im collating data and planning my experiments now. ((:awesome week ahead, whoots 2009 is gonnna come to a real sweet end, esp if i get my license =D