Thursday, March 11, 2010 @8:09 PM
breathe in, breathe out.
nah, that didn't help at all.
you know what i don't get,
the fact that you can't see - can't see that this troubles me too.
i don't know what the future holds,
i know i have aspirations.
but these aspirations, believe it or not, are outta reach.
at least, from where i stand at this very moment.
but that doesn't mean i want to give up on them.
although, its tough, i want to still carry with me this hope that i can still believe in miracles.
i understand that reality forces me to think otherwise,
but please give me time.
i don't have complete confidence that this path i want to embark on will succeed.
but i want to try.
and i need you to understand that i feel scared too.
i just cant have you constantly in my face telling me that i need to plan,
i need to tell you in advance so that preparations can be made.
i know this path i wish to take will use up everything we have.
but i need you to know, i need time.
time to think,
time for more things to be confirmed before i can start giving you answers,
answers to all these never ending questions.
but until i can,
don't you see that all this is giving me so much stress.
you say that its my future, and i should be more concerned.
can you not see that i am so worried,
but there is nothing i can do either.
so please stop asking me what i want.
because everytime you do,
i become more unsure.